Again, I have to post out of order but this is something I kept in my memory bank and wanted to be sure to record somewhere because I think it captures all of mine and Todd's emotions the moment Boden arrived in this world...and I want to be able to tell him about it one day:
When Boden was getting cleaned up by one of the nurses, Naomi, the nurse who spent her entire shift dealing with the drama of my labor and delivery (and post delivery issues) asked what the baby's name was. I looked at Todd and we both started (or continued?) crying and I got this big lump in my throat and I croaked "I can't say it out loud, yet." The feelings of love, relief, joy, pain (physical and emotional), grief over Ruby, the reality of really becoming parents...all welled up in that one instant and it felt like saying Boden's name out loud was the ultimate release of everything--and the bottleneck was the huge lump in my throat. Finally, it came out and Todd and I just cried and kissed and marvelled at our cone-headed, wailing son.
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