Keep Me In Your Heart For Awhile

Earlier this month, Bueller lost his battle with cancer and we all had to say goodbye.  It was and still is incredibly sad and painful for Todd and I.  After 11 years, he was intertwined in our family life and the hole his absence has created is felt every day.   I'd be sad if he was 15 years old and died after a long day in the field hunting, for sure, but seeing such a strong, athletic dog with a healthy diet die from cancer makes me so sad for him and crabby at I don't know who. 

Boden is processing the death in ways that I'm sure 4 year olds do...over time and in small doses.  We go from talking about how we miss Bueller to his simple summation of the situation with "Well we can just get a cat." (unlikely).

In the end, Boden's pre-school mantra "You get what you get and you don't throw a fit" applies to our love for Bueller and his loss (and to many other things, as you might imagine).  I am thankful we had 11 wonderful years with him but we'll miss him like crazy.

 Bueller was a fantatstic dog; full of soul, loving (on his own terms), cantankerous, with a crazy-naughty streak that made us chuckle (after we were done being mad).  As I like to say, he was the perfect blend of sweet and salty for our tastes.  There'll never be another one like him.

"Shadows are falling and I'm running out of breath

Keep me in your heart for awhile

If I leave you it doesn't mean I love you any less

Keep me in your heart for awhile"  (Warren Zevon)